An intimate family portrait of love, life and legacy.
When a father is diagnosed with Motor Neurone Disease, his filmmaker son returns home to tell the story of a lifetime, but an unexpected suicide and gender transition cast life and legacy into question as the project takes on a new edge.
Project Status
In rough cut — a 90-minute feature documentary, completing for a mid-2027 release.
Shot in Golden Bay, Aotearoa New Zealand, with a focused additional shoot in early 2027 to complete the edit. We’re seeking finishing & release funding, and welcome conversations with distributors and sales agents.
Told through the lens of first-time director Jay Horton, this film draws on a lifetime of archives to share his father Jim’s visionary mind and poetic heart, which led to the creation of an initiatory rite-of-passage event for young men and their fathers.
Jay’s raw vulnerability opens the door to explore parenting, addiction, depression, and suicide. Taking you on a journey to explore the timeless wisdom that is at the heart of the Men’s Movement.
Set in the cinematic surrounds of Golden Bay, New Zealand, this film will push you to the edge and birth a new way of relating to yourself, your relationship with nature, your Father, Son and life as you know it. 🔥
Kia Ora, I am Jay Horton, father of Koa and Fox, son of Jim. I want to tell you a story of my father and as a father, I want to tell you a story as a son, and for my children. I want to tell you a universal story of change and transition.
My father, Jim loved to speak poetry into moments of depth and transition, ritual spaces, into gatherings of men and boys becoming men. He physically wasn't able to speak much in the last couple years because of his condition - which frustrated him intensely - he always had so much to say and was known for his oratory power and skill.
⬇️ I share why I am compelled to tell this story in the video below ⬇️
Life framed gently,
with raw authenticity,
shared as an offering.
I can only tell my story... now!
Everything else is ... an interpretation
... a manipulation
How to begin is the first question.
How much to reveal is the second.
What questions to ask is the last...
I wrote these words to my father a year or two ago about this film and my journey with it. The film is based on the book that we produced together after he found out he had Motor Neurone Disease in 2014. The book is called 'Marking Life's Stages: The Mystery of Rites of Passage' and details the development of the multi day residential program for fathers and sons; TRACKS - a modern day initiation into manhood - a Rite of Passage.
Now with my father having died in 2020, I am sitting with the awareness of the breadth of his vision in a new way. The evolution of the work that was seeded in the early 90’s, men's groups and community events that he included me in as a teenager. These events were wild and explorative and after some years the men on those events noted that there really was a need for an outreach program for boys.
And so TRACKS 'Rites of Passage' were reborn, right around the time I was trying to define what it is to be a man for myself as an early twenty-year-old. I joined the program with my passion for photography and video, and the seeds for this film began.
I will share my and my father's story in a heartfelt and authentic way, a carrier for the wider story of Rites of Passage and men awakening to our collective responsibility to grow up out of an old paradigm of patriarchy. I will share my questions and wondering about how to be a father today.
And with following this hero’s thread I will one day hopefully live into the answers, like one of my father Jim's favourite poems by Rilke says...
“Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue.
Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.”
― Rainer Maria Rilke, 1903
Join us as we weave a new collective dreaming about Fathering, Masculinity and Rites of Passage...
Pictured: Jay Horton (Director), Rich Humphreys (Producer), Danielle Marriott (Prod. Assistant)
Producer Statement | Rich Humphreys
I first met Jay Horton back in 2017 at ‘Rising Sons’ — a rite-of-passage campout held at the Treefields event park, on the land at Tui Community. It was my first real step into facilitating a ‘container’, and together with my then nine-year-old son Rai, we journeyed to a new place in our relationship.
I was taken by the authenticity of the whole weekend, and by the unique connection between Jim and Jay. I mentioned my hope to help share the story when the timing was right. Fast-forward through three years of my own journey in the Men’s Movement, and Jim’s courageous non-assisted suicide, and we have arrived at that time.
Globally, people are spiralling back to the centre of their being — weighing what really matters, and the future they want for themselves, their families and their communities. This film is a compelling case study of people actively exploring youth-pathways facilitation and sharing it with the world.
The themes in this film will resonate strongly with fathers of teenage boys in particular: how do you prepare your son to become a strong, empowered and authentic individual?
Jim and Jay’s intimate story, and their extraordinary archival footage, give us a strong personal arc on which to build a 90-minute feature documentary.
This is a film for fathers, for sons, and for anyone with a father or son in their life. From suicide and depression to growth and empowerment, there are many important threads woven through the narrative. We’re reaching for a universal audience and building on existing relationships to create a strong impact campaign around the release — and to help rites-of-passage programs find their place in the modern world.
"My one main assumption in publishing this book is my belief that fathers and mothers want their children to grow into whole and healthy adults and to become a powerful force for good in our communities. If you are one of these parents or people searching for ways to achieve these outcomes then this resource is for you. In this book, through the medium of ancient and modern critical processes which have been proven down the years."
Jim Horton | Author & ROP Director
MARKING LIFE'S STAGES - THE MYSTERY OF RITES OF PASSAGE
In My Father’s Tracks has its genesis in a 2008 book by Don Bowak that was built on by Jim and Jay Horton to become a powerful resource to inspire and empower people through Rites of Passage. It is a fantastic tool for any individual or group interested in this important work.
Purchase the Book
Marking Life’s Stages shares true stories of change and lessons learned, to share in the co-creation and facilitation of Rites of Passage events has been a journey spanning years. Inspired by Australian Don Bowak's wonderful book of the same name, it has grown into so much more. It contains true personal stories of men and women and their journey to adulthood as well as a manual on how to create 'Rites of Passage' for your family or community.
Included within the pages are Don Bowak’s original book of the same title. We have included key aspects of several of our teachers and mentors work including; Joseph Campbell, Bill Plotkin, Dr Arne Rubinstein, Michael Jude, Bret Stephenson. Also included in the book are stories from men and women involved with the work of inspiring young people as well as directly involved with TRACKS and TIDES programs. Please click the link below to purchase your copy directly from 'The Rites of Passage Foundation'.
'Tracks' is a multi-day process of initiation, challenge and growth that has gone on to impact thousands of families, since its inception in 2002.
The program is facilitated through the Rites of Passage foundation, and now links with a 'sister' program called 'Tides' and various Men's, Woman's, Elder's gatherings hosted in the purpose built 'Treefields' event park at Tui Community; a natural container on the fringe of the Able Tasman National park.
Learn more about TRACKS Trust"We have not to venture the journey alone for the heroes of all time have gone before us, we have only to follow the thread of the hero's journey."
Joseph Campbell - American Mythologist
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